Ego

As you see in the map here, the yellow stuff that you see on top is the Ego. The balloon that is yellow is the ego. You see down below it starts from the Swadisthan. This is the colour of the bile within us, and this Swadhishthana Chakra which is for our creativity is directly connected to that ego there. And when it starts rotating round the Void and going to the various parts of the Void, it collects all the problems of the Void. Void is that green circle within us where physically we have in the Void, we have uterus, we have kidney – it’s a complete viscera: all the intestines, ascending, transverse, descending colon, liver, is the upper part of liver more, then also pancreas and the spleen. So all the problems of these organs are collected by this chakra which moves. It comes out of the Nabhi Chakra and moves round and round and round, and collects all the problems. It nourishes, gives power, the vital power to these organs, and also it generates necessary power for our creative action... All the problems that we have out of these, this creativity and the action of all these organs are to be counterbalanced, and as a counterbalance the ego develops...

Lots of misunderstandings creep in when we pamper our ego like this – or I should say that when we are satisfied with our ego – that we really get lost. We get identified with our ego and not with ourselves. So if you do some work very well: supposing you have, say, made a beautiful poetry or, say, not piece of poetry but say you have made a very good painting, then you would like people to appreciate. If they do not appreciate you, you think you have done nothing, though you have done a beautiful poem – of a canvas. But still you will be so dissatisfied with yourself unless and until people appreciate you. They must garland you, they must say, “Oh, you are great, you are really unique, you are a genius.” You know many artist who created great art, got trapped into this kind of misidentification. When they created some great art, the art could not give them satisfaction. They had to go to ego, and Mr. Ego would not be satisfied unless and until everybody says, “Yes, yes, you are very good. You have done this, you are a genius, you are this, you are that.” That’s how the ego develops then within us.

But a situation can arise where even when we have done nothing, we want to take the credit. Then we call such a person egoistical who says, “I will do this, I have done this, I, I, I, I” – then we call him an egoistical person. Because he gives words to his ego, that’s why we call him egoistical. But all of us have got this Mr. Ego there, sitting on our heads. When it starts bloating, the more successful you are, the worse it is. The more you indulge into planning and thinking, the worse it is. The balloon goes on, you see, pumped as if you are pumping a balloon, you see. The more you pump, the more it becomes. And you can never realise that you are not that ego. Then you start feeling very nice about it, because everybody says, “Oh, what a great man he is.” The whole society develops on those lines... But this ego is never satisfied. It goes on asking for more food, more food, and you enjoy it too...

Ego means misappropriation. You believe in it because you think that “after all I must be something, and I have done this, I have done that.” But actually what happens physically is then when this balloon spreads on your head all over – the aura of the brain surrounds the heart normally, normally; but when there is ego problem, then ego surrounds the heart. And when ego surrounds the heart, the brain is cut off from the heart. So you are a non-integrated person, or we can say disintegrated. Your heart runs one side, your brain runs another side, your body runs third side, your emotions run fourth side. So four people running four horses, and that’s how you are completely torn.

With this ego-orientation only you get so many diseases, as I have told you before, like diabetes, heart attack, we can say also cancer could be one of them, arthritis you might get. You also get with this too much thinking, paralysis, paralysis is because of that, and kidney failures. The worst is liver. Because of over activity, liver is neglected... Sahaja Yoga is the only way really we can face our ego, because through Sahaja Yoga only we can see ourselves. Now, how to overcome this ego? if you start looking at yourself, and make fun. Human beings only know very well how to make fun of themselves. No animals know that. If you learn how to make fun of yourself, your ego will go down...

You don’t have to judge others, just see yourself, because it is for your own good. If somebody is egoistical it makes no difference to you. Or non-egoistical, makes no difference. Only thing is, you should really see for yourself what is good and what is bad. That’s how it works out... (22 October 1979-The Problem of Ego)